Nothing pleasant has come my way as of recent. Sure i had an okay birthday, but the rest of the month has been nothing but bullshit. Dentist appointments, no hope whatsoever to getting a decent job, my router annoying me more than usual during my regular plays of Heroes of Newerth, which i should probably just stop playing, because all it does is piss me off more ( I recently just started to fail hard at the game and i have no idea why ).

Along with that, my move to Windows 7 has been bumpy, though it's partially the fault of nVIDIA and other software. TDR sucks hard. And i still haven't been able to install Photoshop CS4, because the installer just hates everything. What a douche, eh?

Anything else? Not really. I'm 20 now, single, living with my parents, with no job to feed my own needs to update my hardware and buy new trinkets to play around with, or to support my family monetarily, seeing as this recession thing is taking it's toll, even on us. Oh and we have a cat now. She's 7 years old and is quite an epic cat, as she traveled roughly 3 kilometers through harsh winter cold for 3 days to get home. Through fields and a forest and stuff. And she had 2 brothers with her. Who died on the way.

Oh yeah, the military is bugging me again, too. Fortunately my childhood experiences of what is referred to as school violence might just be enough of a trauma to get me off the hook, for good.

I haven't a clue what to do with my life at this point. I've no place to start from, i'm questioning my choice of career, i got nowhere to go from home and i can't find any straws to grasp onto. It's like a dead end with a brick wall, and i'm desperately banging my head against it to break it down.

And i think those fresh stains on it is my own blood...